2/02/03 WT: 205

Hello! The beginning of a new month! Ground Hogs Day!

It is very upsetting what happened to the space shuttle yesterday morning. I like what President Bush said about the crew members not returning to Earth but they did come Home.

School is going well. It is getting hectic with lots of lab assignments and tests coming up. I cant' believe how the first few weeks have flown by. I cross off each week as it is completed. I already receved information about the May graduation. It will be here before I know it!

Weight loss. I decided to go back to Weight Watchers in person meetings. I went Friday morning and signed up and I am so glad I did. I really think I need the weekly meeting support plus the weigh ins for accountablity.

Seeing how I get no support from my family, I need to get some support for my weight loss goals somewhere. I just love the meeting leader we had. She is just so dynamic.

Yes, my official weigh in showed I weighed more than I thought I did although of course when you weigh in at WW you can't wear your birthday suit like you do at home. =) So I imagine the heavy winter clothes accounted for a couple pounds.

That is Ok. I began yesterday officially and wrote everything down in my journal. It went really well. I had trouble getting all my points eaten because I just wasn't hungry.

I am trying to set some mini goals for myself. I know that the 10% loss is a goal. There are some online challenges going on and one is for April Fool's Day. I think I will do that one. Trying to figure out how much weight I could lose by April Fool's Day. That is 9 weeks away. I hate to say I will lose 2 pounds a week because what if I can lose 3 pounds and I don't want the mind set of just losing 2 pounds in case I can lose more. I will say 3 pounds a week for 9 weeks and that would make a 27 pound loss and also I would pass my 10% goal. I do tend to lose a lot of weight once I get going.

Exercise! Yipee! I am still exercising. Only a couple times last week because son was home from school sick and I had to change a class and then take son to the doctor. It was just hectic! I did go to my dance class! I love my dance class! I kinda wish it was every day! In some cities you can go to belly dance classes almost every day but where I live, even though it is a large city, I was lucky to find this one class!

That is another one of my goals. I really would like to be able to wear one of those gorgeous costumes. Sure I could buy one a less revealing one at the weight I am but I really want to wear the the cabaret type costumes. Lots of flash! I picked out a gorgeous costume to be my goal. Here is a picture of it.

Gorgeous huh!!!

Well I had better go for now!

2/04/03 WT: 205

Hello! Just thought I would write a bit before heading off to class this morning. I am still 100% On Plan! It really is very easy to keep within the points I am allowed. In fact, it has been hard to eat the points in my range. By the end of the day I am under points so I have to eat more!

Eating those yummy 0 point veggies really fills you up. =)

I haven't snuck and weighed myself at all yet either. I am waiting until my meeting day on Friday to do the official weigh in and we'll see how I did. I have been drinking a lot of water and exercising.

Did my weight training yesterday and practiced my belly dancing. I didn't practice as long as I would have liked as I had to leave. One good thing about school is that Monday through Thursday, I will to and from my classes and the campus is big and the parking lot is usually overflowing so I have to park pretty far away. It takes me 20 minutes to get to my first class. So not including the walks between classes, I walk 40 minutes a day on school days!

That first week was really hard. It has been so cold here. Bitter cold and snow and the first week of classes, I thought I would keel over. I was so quickly out of breath. Climbing the flights of stairs I had to stop between flights and catch my breath. I didn't realize how out of shape I was. Now it is much better. I still am walking somewhat slower than many people on campus but I am no longer out of breath walking up the stairs or walking from the parking lot to class.

I am totally sick of this cold weather!

If I have time, I may do this. Take a picture when I was thin and put the different belly dancing costumes on me. Sorta like a computerized paper doll! LOL! For fun I could put one on me now too! If I have enough time, I will do it.

Right now it is hectic with tests and assignments coming due all at once. I have a big exam Wednesday which I am not understanding the material very well so I plan to spend the majority of today studying and getting it down. Now if my family will leave me alone to study in peace, I will be a happy camper. =)

Have a great day!

Today is the big day! First weigh in day. I sneaked and got on my own scale this morning for a peek and let me say it is the lowest that scale has read since the year 2001! I will post the new weight later today after the meeting.

I am leaving the months where I didn't post much and wasn't on plan for most of the month because I want to show that false starts are normal and nobody is perfect. It is difficult to get in the frame of mind to get started and continue and I want to acknowledge that.

School is going well. I don't quite seem into it as I was 10 years ago. I was driven to make straight As. This time, as long as I get a decent grade and learn the material, that is what matters to me. Maybe it is because I am older and I prooved I could get the straight As before.

This year means a new life for me. I started making changes in my life the first of the year. My new year resolutions were some the same some different. Maybe sometime I will go into my home life a bit but not right now. I don't want to be a big downer or run anyone away from my journal. Many of the changes I will be making this year will be about reengineering my life. Getting rid of dead weight negative people in my life who are like anchors. Life is too short to spend it in any way other than happy.

Dance class was last night. I highly recommend taking a dance class! It is the high light of my week! I mean I show up at dance class usually tired, stressed out, with worrys going around in my head and then within the first few minutes of the warm up, I am transformed to a place where there are no problems. I am so focused that all the junk of the day is pushed aside and by the end of class, I am so energized and feeling positive! Try it! It is great exercise and very good for you emotionally.

Well that is it for now. Will be back after weigh in today.

Just got back from my weigh in and I am down 5 pounds! Go Me! I am thrilled!!!!!!!!!

I think WW scales weigh the heaviest as I have heard others say that before. If that is the case, then I must have weighed more than I thought according to my home scale.

My high weight was 203 on my home scale back in December. Now I weighed this morning and it said 196.5. So I am thinking my real weight when I started back in December was 206.5.

Anyway, next week I will be in Onederland and I am not looking back. Bye bye 200s forever!